Day One

I decided to join the world of blogging since I so love reading other people's blogs. Here I'll share what I'm doing and share a little a bit my life here in Portland.

Yesterday was a pretty intense day. I met with my advisor for clinical next term and she really challenged me to consider how I might design a research project to investigate what is happening in systems for pediatric mental health. I was really motivated by her thoughts on that since that was really part of why I went back to school in the first place. I don't want to just help the kids I meet with, I'd like to change how things work for them. Kids need better than we have right now.

I also got a call from a PMHNP who was part of my inspiration to pursue this field. I think its time for us to finally really meet!

Later I had a really good convo with my Mom, just letting her know I am praying to forgive her husband, Chip. It helped to talk and clear the air. It has seemed tense between us for a while. My Mom told me she got a call from Nickers and he sounded so mature and assertive. I was really feeling so full of faith and relieved.

Then, at the end of the day I got some hard news that Nick had to move from his new foster home to a subacute hospital because he was really acting out. I think I just felt numb about it all last night. It was good to go to my C-Group and just spill and be prayed for. It is hard to imagine that Nick might really be in residential for Christmas again. Why?!

This whole year has been about learning to have faith, recieve grace, and now I feel to forgive. It is amazing how much I am aware of God's work now. But I must admit it is painful at times.