not wanting to go

i can't quite figure it out. what is it that takes over my body this time of the morning and says "I DON"T WANT TO GO!" here i have a perfectly wonderful opportunity to be at clinical today and learn and all i can ponder is "how can i get out of it?" i am never sure if this is social phobia, fatigue, neurotransmitter problems, or just plain old laziness. but this happens fairly often--especially when i'm under stress. which i am -- two midterms. one due sunday (take online) and one that i take live in person on tuesday. anyway, i am way underprepared for both and destined for "not an A", which my perfectionist self does not like.

the bright side is that i have a beautiful sunrise outside my window, God still loves me, and a warm shower awaits.

i guess i better hit it. . .