what a week!

last thursday, as some of you know, i cut my hair. short. and i love it. its a lot of fun and easy and cool.


other than that this week has been an emotional drainer for several reasons. sunday was mother's day and while the day itself was quite nice, i was saddened that i am not yet a mother. i really would love to have my own little one to celebrate the day with.

monday was an intense day at my internship at the st. v's eating disorders clinic. i think i had a little too much transference/countertransference and left just drained emotionally.

tuesday, i got news bright and early that nick will not move to clackamas after all. multnomah county folks refused to pay for this program, so now we are back to square one. in light of the "desire to be a mom" and have my "kid-like" guy nearby, this really broke my heart. for the first time i found myself with this almost uncontrollable urge to cry while in class. i held back and my friend maya helped cheer me up on break as we commisserated about little boys and wanting babies.

today i saw my therapist. that was helpful and i boo-hooed a lot. i think i'm staying home to work on an assignment and read in lieu of class--we are studying something that i will likely never need to know in my career. ah priorities.

tomorrow is yet another landmark--cv and i will be married for 10 whole years. wow! we are going to spend the morning and afternoon out at the coast together to celebrate.