thoughts that cloud my head

today at the outpatient psych program I was challenged to participate instead of just watch. to try to experience the relaxation group. it is amazing how those who are mentally ill and those who are "weller" still need the same things. time alone, time to reflect, time to push away all the thoughts that make things fuzzy.

here are the thoughts that clouded my mind today . . .
silly hair, learning, food in teeth, needing manicure, new place, worries of nick, care for marriage, pain, i don't know what to write, full, full, full, full, bare legs, shoulds, dancing, wanting to leave, feeling graded, messing up, far away from whom i love, needing a break, realising my own need, lonely, angry, nervous, shallow breath, want rain, missing out, want baby, want to fix problems at vibrant, vulnerable, am i burdensome, unlearned lessons due to fear an distraction . . .

push these AWAY