a.m. reticence

i keep waiting for something thought provoking to happen so that i can write another post, and well, it just hasn't. so here i am up at 5:30 a.m. (got called off of work) and i figure, well i suppose now is the time.
lately, i have been trying to get my head on straight about my practicum. i am a Psychiatric Mental Health Nurse Practitioner Intern at Providence Portland Medical Center's Inpatient Child & Adolescent Unit. maybe this is part of my problem--such a long title. i love the work, but it is really pushing me. the psychiatrists are treating me a bit like an MD fellow.
other than that, i continue with my classes--this term includes research, advanced practice roles, motivational interviewing (two wkend class), and pharmacology. i hardly feel the remnants of other terms are sticking in my brain, but i suppose there is always room for a few more bits of knowledge.
and yes, the rumors are true, cv and i are beginning the process of adopting. we think. . . i had a panic attack in the target baby section after we met with the adoption counselor. we are considering ethiopia or vietnam.
its funny how as i write, a theme emerges. God is moving me forward and i feel not ready. like i want to back up and learn more or be better prepared. i have a feeling He knows what He's doing though. guess i better keep moving.