parenting, meditation, and job search

well, after several days of full-time parenting, albeit with several breaks, I find myself at the end of my patience. i truly believe that without God's strength, if I am asked ONE more time "why . . . ?", i may burst. he is adorable, precious, and right now just annoying in his curiousity and never ending busyness.
funny how desperately i want to be a mom, but when i've been one for a week, i want my childless life back.
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i am reading an exceptional book right now, Eat, Pray, Love, which is about a 31 yr old woman's travels to Italy, India, & Indonesia. today i read about her work in meditation and realize my own need to reflect, discipline myself, and purge.
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career---well now i have two potential job offers pending. one at a private practice as a resident PMHNP (think increased supervision and decreased pay) and one at the hospital. neither have been offered yet, but both are "in the works." right now i am feeling more pulled to the hospital. its close, i like the physicians, and the work would be varied.